Dear Angel?

 Dear Angel,
          I'm getting a little freaked out by one of my friends who is a girl. She has a boyfriend, that she's been with for a really long time. And now I get the feeling that she's hitting on me. Is it possible she's lez, or bi? And should I worry?
             Freaked Out


Dear Freaked Out,
      no you shouldn't worry. If you really feel as though shes hitting on you, sit down with her and discuss it. If she is, then decide what you want, and then tell her to either back off a little, or whatever it is you want. Don't freak out if shes lez or bi, theres absolutely nothing wrong with that, but make sure to set the ground rules between you two

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Breaking Dawn

 I just got done reading Stephanie Meyer's new book in the Twilight series. There was something about it that made it different from the first ones. It makes you feel a high level of joy, makes you cry, and it mkaes it makes it to where you feel yourself in the book. Once, I started reading it, I couldn't put it down. You'll want to read it until you've finally finished it. Then you'll hope that she'll change her mind and continue the story. Her characters, and the meaning of the story leavve you breathless. You'll find a desire filled when you realize anyone can relate to this book(not in the literary terms), but through the love that Bella and Edward created and shared, to the feelings Nessie and Jacob have uncovered. The story all around makes your heart begging for more. It was a terrific read, and a compelling book. Thanks to Stephanie Meyer for introducing this story.

It Happens....

We tend to say things like "Oh that'll never happen to me", or "Stuff like that rarely happens". There are many surprises that we come across as we move forward in life. Ones that are expected and ones that aren't. Everyone can have this image that their meant to live up to. And one day that image changes, and everything you've worked for just blows up. You get all upset, and depressed. It happens.
We all want to live the perfect life. We all want our children to be happy. Or if you're a child, you want to be able to live the best childhood. Rarely do we ever live up to our perfect fantasies. It just happens.
We tend to think to much on how and what went wrong. We can never just accept that it happens because it happens, or because it happens for a reason. Some of us move on, and adjust to the changes. But there are some who end up falling into a trance of depression that we just can't get out of.
Shit happens, wether we like it or not. We can't change the past, present, or whats meant to be our future. We're not meant to. This is how I think of the situation. Yeah a lot of bad stuff has happened to me. I'm 16 and I've had to mature and grow up so much more faster than I would have liked to. I've suffered debt, and moving around, and failing in school. I've lost friends, and family, to both death, and differences. And a lot more. I do get depressed when something bad happens...I'd be lying to myself if I didn't. But I also learned that everything happens for a reason. I honestly don't know what that reason is. I can only hope it's to make myself stronger for my future. Everytime something unexpected happens for the worse, Just remember it sometimes "just" happens. And never believe that it can't happen to you. We Love, We Lose, We Live, We Die, It happens...

A Sun Rising

I wrote my feelings down one friday, and this is what I came up with. Sorry it goes from topic to topic.

This is the first morning I've seen the sun rise completely, and I'm only watching it from the west. I've stayed up all night to see this event, and it's beautiful. Isn't it amazing how something so natural, and simple can be so breathtaking? how simply watching the sun rise in symbolic meaning to beginning a new day, can change your mood so quickly and drastically. i feel born again unto this day. for i enjoy, I know it shalt not last but this one day. For tomorrow I shall miss what beauty it is.

Why is it that experiencing the sun rising gives inspiration to us. Inspiratioin to write, to sing, to dance, to live. not only does it inspire, it brings meaning. Meaning that we simply overlook. We overlook it due to the fact taht you have to appreciate, and actually look at something to comprehend it. To think about it deeply. Anyone, for instance, cna wake up and glance at the sun rising, but if you can sit down, breathe, and be captivated by the mixture of the colors, the glow the spreads out onto the city, with each passing second, and actually relax and see waht a difference it's made, then you truly understand the meaning. you didn't overlook it like some others. Pretty soon you'll feel a change in attitude, a change in thought, and a change in heart.

With all the stresses in todays world, we lose track of what is really important to us. I'm not just talking about our family, or friends, even though we lose track of them too. (lol) We never remember to think about our other side. The other side that wants to be creative, free, relaxed. It's completely natural to be blind to beauty that is laced in front of us everyday. We wouldn't be human if we didn't. haha. You know that statement "Your heart is as dark as your soul"? That's not true for anyone of us. I should know, I'm one of those people who hears this statement very often. But what people don't really understand is our souls are not dark, but pulled into the shadows of remembrance. I personally worry about everyone else around me, more than myself. This is a flaw of mine, but it makes people think that I don't care at all. Because I forget to take care of myself and how I feel, I had no idea how much it affected those around me, and how it affected my attitude and my perspective on things. People would call me dark, and how I have no soul because my emotions bottle up and go swirling around me. this happens to some of us as well. once we learn to correct and improve our flaws over time, we will all feel the beginning of a new day, and a new life. For we will be able to look at something and understand the true nature of it, and its purpose. Beauty and Inspiration come in many forms, ideas, and ways. But one way that will always be there for every person willing to understand a new meaning is by simply watching the sun rise. just remember to relax, breathe, and let beauty take its toll on our souls.

Eclipse

Today, we got to witness a solar eclipse. The mark of an ending. This solar eclipse is in the sign of Leo. We should bring up the courage to follow our hearts, and our dreams. Let nothing hold you back.
On Aug. 16th the Lunar Eclipse will be present. The mark of a new beginning. This eclipse is in the sign of Aquarius. The complete opposite of Leo. Lunar Eclipses are a time for emotions to flow. It can cause you to feel confused, angry, or upset. But don't worry. The Aquarius Eclipse brings great healing power. And Brings Clarity. But remember confusion comes before clarity. so don't try to fix or figure everything out on this day.

What makes life worth living for?

 Is it our families? Our friends? I've thought about this question for a long time. And I still can't figure it out. I used to believe that the purpose of life was to live each day as if it were your last. I used to not be afraid of death. What changed?
  I want to have a family someday. I want to find true love. But what is motivating me to do so. Honestly, nothing. Maybe there is no purpose of life. Maybe there isn't anything that makes life worth living for.
   what do you think makes your life worth living?  

Selfish=Suicide

 Most people say that if a person considers, or attempts suicide they are selfish. What makes you think this? When I considered suicide because of some trouble with my dad, trust me, the last thing I thought of was myself. Right before you commit the act to commit suicide you think of your family, your friends, and everyone that was there for you. 
  Sure, some diseases and medical problems can lead up to it, but most of it is what happens throughout your life. If you have a family member saying they hate you, or a friend putting you down constantly. A person can only take it so long before they snap.
  At www.afsp.org they tell you that if you find out that a friend of yours is considering suicide to seek professional help right away. This is the wrong thing to do at the time. The person who is considering suicide most likely does not want to go to some therapist who has no idea what they've been through. The best thing to do is sit down with them talk to them, ask them what has made them come to this conclusion to take their life. Avoid statements like: "I know", "I've been through it too", "What about your family and friends". Just talk to them, keep them calm, and let them know your there.
  Also, remember when something thinks about suicide, it will always stay with them. It's something they won't forget, they may try, they'll deny it, but no matter what they try they'll remember the day they thought about taking their life, what led to it, who was there to convince them someone cares, and who talked them out of it.